Have you ever had a longing? As Christians we long for God to show us His plan for us. We wonder why we must face what we face. In our suffering we long how long God will allow us to face this situation. I ask you this, is it hard to see God through it all? Be honest? I can say sometimes it is very hard because as a human we are only limited by what we can see. Outside that it is in God’s hands for things to be moving around. Remember in a blog a couple months ago I stated, “When God is silent… He is moving!” I have another quote I would like to share with you for this blog.
“Often God does things in our life that may not fit our grid of ‘normal’. But normal to God isn’t a set formula; its obedience no matter what the cost, and total dependence upon Him for the outcome” (Eric Ludy “When Dreams Come True”)
This quote has been a part of my list of favorite quotes since I was 21. It is very powerful if you sit down and ponder on it. We often wonder the why’s, but then when we do not get an answer we become angry, restful, unforgiving, distant, and in many cases walk away from our Christianity. The next question would then be, what do you do first when you do face obstacles or sufferings? Do you run to Jesus? or Do you run to something that temporarily make you feel good? You see I still have not gotten a job, and I cannot tell you how hard it has been for me and my wife. No words can be expressed in how miserable it can be waiting, and people gossiping about you because it should be easy for me to get a job. It should be, but I have been denied over and over again. Many from churches and organizations, and many more from local businesses. The longing to be a part of a church as a pastor, counselor, or director eats at me each day that nothing happens. What can I do? I have friends to network to, I have reached out to numerous pastors, and I have called places; but non of them helped me land a job. How about you, an illness, jobless, dead end job, or maybe you lost someone close to you recently. How do you feel? Do you blame God?
You see the promise we are given is that He will never leave us nor forsake us, but that does not mean we face the world because God wants us to suffer. We suffer because we know Him not because He plans it. Suffering and doubt are mixed together like chocolate and milk. How we deal with suffering establishes where our doubt takes us. We start out with milk (unshattered faith) that is when sufferings (Chocolate) comes into play and mixes with the milk. It becomes dark (and tasty) and the white is gone, but does that mean our faith is? No, well it depends on how you view the suffering. We long for our dreams to come true, we long for the pain to go away, and we long to be something great. Sufferings come into play, and we begin to doubt that things will happen. Some dreams may never happen, but then I have to ask if you are seeking God’s plan for you… is your dream God’s? I do believe that God gives us the desires of our heart. The catch is if we are seeking Him then our desires are really God’s desires for us in us, get it?!
Is there really a plan in all this, yes God’s. Can I give you answers? No, I cannot because I think you have to personally go through it to be understood. Many believe they have the answers, but what about when there is no light at the end of the tunnel? What if there is no ANSWER of any kind? The best I can say is to serve at your church, at an organization, or volunteer somewhere. Do it for God, so that you are serving God. I say spend time in His word, read it as a letter from your God. Seek out friends who are able to help you not stray from God, those who can pray for you, and those who care for you enough to spend time in fellowship with you. You must understand it gets hard as time goes. King David faced it when he ran from King Saul for years. Joseph felt it after he was imprisoned for two years without an answer. It is an every day battle to not allow doubt take you into the arms of the world. Doubt is not a sin if you are seeking God to teach you through it. SO I ask all of you (including me) to long, but long for Him so that you may see if Him through your suffering.